life and times

just thought i wud right something

2006-09-06T14:51:00.000-07:00

its been too long la kan...alot has happened..of course it has been several months...
Malaysia was great as usual...been spending a whole lot of time wit the family this time around..
which is great actually...to think of it..there are my friends and family at the same time..i mean if i want to have girl talk, there's always zaza or nadine...and if i want to hang wit the dudes..theres always izmir, udin and boy...ariff...if i feel like gossiping, opah,mama, cu and the gang of wednesday lunch dah cukup utk cover the hot stories..heheh

and there is jj and tantan who always makes me smile sometimes in comel ways and sometimes annoying...who cn resist them? i spoil them too much ke huh? hahah...i see them once a year kott...soo the hell la kan...but i dont see udin tht much as his away from home and only are home during weekends...naj is all grownup and a bit reserved but sumtimes can be rakan berborak and teman buat errands...

Clearly i miss being home terribly la kan.. 2 years down and 2 years to go..insyaallah..all of thi swont be near to complete if syrrun takde kan..his also family...though we may disagree on few things and may have our arguments but hey thts the beautyy of it kan...with him i can get everything in one person..well maybe not rakan shopping..hahah..but still can la! hahaha..
besides that all in! heheh..love u baby!

whatever it is though there are kekurangan, or things may not be smooth sailing...i definitely wont trade any of this with anything in the world...family is wht matters most.(baby ingt ure family too okay)..took me several years to actually embrace tht and really realize it...
sayyanggg sumuee!!

ok im being emotional or whtever it is...toodlesss

ke- update- an

2006-04-23T10:49:00.000-07:00

oh sgt amat lamer tak berupdate...tak tau why uddenly ive the urge to post something..
oh well eventhough its been centuries since i last updated, unfortunately nothing much has happened in my so called boring life...

ive 2 weeks to finals..oh my god...and ive panick attactks sometimess... but still could not bring my lazy ass to study...and im goin back a few days after finals...
im so excited to balik but at the same time soo takut! i hate changes! but hey thats what life is all about kan... i hate to face the truth....who doesnt kan..thats why we love to just live in a world of 'indeniality'...(ok i dun know if there is such word but who cares)... Not good butat least it makes u feel good at least for a short time ...

and i have to move out from my apartment...gosh the thought of packing and cleaning and moving out dah buat i penat...we have to leave the apartment spotless kottttt!!!!!! which iss impossible..hahhahah
and ive loadsa things( i think) to bawak balik but dun think theres enogh space in my luggage..
and mama boley lagi suruh beli barang lagi! aiyooo!

A miracle happen to me yesterday! i talked to my bf for 6 hrs! oh my god that is a miracle! suke nyer i....we havent talked that long for ages okay..the last time i think was when he was still in malaysia...and now dah selamat nk dekat setahun dah he's there !!
because he just discovered that he had free minutes ker aper ntah...kedoinks la u baby! hehhehe
dah berjuta tahun aderphone baru terdiscover.. heheh..nevertheless i am soo thankful ...
sangatt amatt...felt soo good to talk to him...

hmm id love to put some pic in thiss but seems like i dun have any recent pics la... been busy musy jer...busy doin nothing la kan!
hahahah....

*17 days to go~ kurkurkur

and also i have 2 weeks to at least menguruskan badan sket..(i refuse to acknwledge when ppl say tht i dah kurus..hahaha) the last time i went back org kater i gemuk..and trust me that is not the best feeling in the world la kan!
but hey im also looking forward to eat eat eat and eat and gain weight hahha sebab tu la kene lose weight kan?

sambungan updates

2006-03-16T10:48:00.000-08:00

okay, its been awhile since the last time i post something....i dun know why i cant bring myself to writing something..anyhow...wassup ye?
well not much kott...its spring break...ive been doin nothing except lazing around the house...i du know wether its good or bad..well sure feels good though, but dun know la the effect nnt kan...
mest gems teramat..heheh
went uiuc to visit nurul and sherry...its been awhile babess...it was good seeing them as usual...berupdatesss, and bertalking till dawn, hahaaha..the whole workss la ...
suke laa...we'll sure come down again and mengacau hidup u...hahaha...
both of them sampai terponteng2 class because we were there...hahaha...soo basically tu jer
oh yeah we went shopping, didnt beli much pun..just bought for adik2 tersyg...

i miss syrrun...i cant wait to go back...although when i balik, i still have to wait for another sebulan lebih...well we've got used to the distance i guess...mcm2 halangan and rintangan but insyaallah we'll make it through kan sayang kan...
rindu u la baby...

talked to mama...adulahai my mother is so kechoh i tell u..hahaha...so funny la she..she has all this plans lined up for us when i get back ...its like i nk balik like next week ker aper...heheh
but at least i know even though im goin back the econd time aderla significant maksud to my family...hahahha..
i know ppl will be like, heh balik lagi..but hey once a year kene la balik right?
ok not much to say i guess
till then toodlesss

updatesupdatesupdates

2006-02-20T10:58:00.000-08:00

oh tersgt lamer tk update here..alot has happened...when was the last time i posted sumthin? oh my god during finals...that is sooo lame! its already the spring semester, and halfway thru it lagi...
anyhow ill just summarize whats been happening...
1st
right after finals, my parents came...they got me my car! suke sgt...thnx mama and papa!
sgt berbakti even though baru jer gune...:) brought them to chicago and sum of the outlets...mmg all we did was shopping and menghabiskan duit...hahah kesian papa had to follow both of us shopping!!! but alls good, it was a good one week with them...i even brought them to hafiz punyer commencement...hahaha funny cuz they actually pegi ngk somebody else's nyer graduation first instead mine....but tk kisahlahkan
2nd
then i was off to UK right after my parents balik msia...Meeting suraya and syibli(i tk ske panggil u chib..hehe pakai name betul) was da bomb!!! babi nyer ppuan nie bawak i gi shopping...habis duit i....hehehe...but it was soo good seein her..and celebrating her bday as well...very simple trip but at the same time habis my duit...hahahha
also when to watched bola!! hahah manc united vs bolton..best giler kut...papa got us tickets...masuk suite and all..teraser macam we were winners of sum contest pr sumthin...but best sgt...one hell of an experience..sekali tgk jadila kan.. *my bro's all were soo pissed sbb i yg dpt tgk, i yg tk pernah kisah at all psl bola...oops,sorry adik2 ku syg..*
3rd...
spring semester came..alhamdulillah i did well for the fall semester, hopefully dis semester will do better( but i agak doubt it..hahha)
syrrrunnn came!!! sukenyerrr....
he was here for a whole month... alot happened... whatver it is...i love u more than ever...
we went to new york and niagara falls, who ever thought id get to do this wit him!!! if u ask me like 5 years ago, ill be lik u crazyyy ker?!!! but alls well..i had alot of fun...i suke...just to be wit him at all time...i love having him around... * dtg lagi ye sayang ye*
even hanging around the hs wit him/or cooking/or watching movies/tv/talk/or eat together...
i loved everything abt it...i want him here!!! sob sobb
4th
syrrun went back on the 15h of feb!!! gosh that was a hard one la seriously... sooo berattt u knowww....never been this berat..and when i drove back home from the airport teraser soo kosng and sunyi..cuz usually he'll be the one who'll be driving, or making stupid jokes along the way while i sleep ker aper...aaaaa ....
then when i actually reached home..he dah takder..gosh lagila sunyii....tgk sofa ksg, or the tv tak show his usual programmes he'll watch...all those from discovery channel, or history channel..mmg channel pelik2...:D..
sayang u are soo missed around here...i nak u kat sini!!!

oh well every beginning has an end rite...i cant wait for the next beginning which will be in june...
at least i have something to look forward to...
rindunesss melampaui batassss nieee....
anyhow that basically wraps whats been goin on...
soo now ill have to hit the books...and study...
till then toodless...

* sayang, no matter what i am here...i love u soo much!! thank u sooo much for coming here, and thank u soo much for all the love that u've showered me...and most of all thank you for being here when everybody else walks out ...u are my bestfriend, my soulmate....i love u sgt amat...will be seeing u soon kay baby...*

finals week

2005-12-14T21:36:00.000-08:00

oh my god..i think im gonna be sick...finals are driving me up the wall~~~ tula saper suruh study last minute...padanla kan muke tu!!
but hey i know myself better than anyone else...i feel that i work better under pressure...seriously so this last minute thingy kinda works for me...hahaha... but its definitely not healthy la!! well we'll see...as this semester is coming to an end... and this semester also is sort of like an experiment in order for me to find the best way/right way/easy way to study and get my grades up...we'll see...at least until next week!! :D oh gosh purdue is definitely so cruel....
but the system's good and efficient thats for sure... ..

anyhow....its 1238 am and im actually tired...i didnt do much today...i mean studied the whole freakin day... its been a few days since i makan sumthin right..and today when i actually ate right, my stomache is giving me a hard time!!! aiyoo...mmg tk healthy at all la musim exam nie...
sleep late, not eating rite( bukan tak makan, makan mmg tetap makan!! kurkurkur)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i sakit perut and sakit otak!!! reallly....my body is tired but my brain is still 'bergeraking' hahah...
anyhow.. its gonna be like that for the next three days!!
now it feels like time is passing by so slow when i need it to go by faster....
ok i am so crappin...
babai pak lebai tupai

*1 down 4 to go*

oh my god....

2005-12-11T13:31:00.000-08:00

its comin trueee finally...

ok well before tht ive got to mengharungi finals, which is less than 3 days...mati i...
but heyy, i canttt wait for winter breakkk oh my goodd sgt amat !!!!!!!!!!!
i am sooo excited tahap dewa...

econs paper will be on wednesday, i tk bljr at all lagi..ma gedd....but planning to start kejap lagi..cant believe i actually ader plan of study and im actually following it..hahah...well ader la terlari maser sket..but hey thats discpline enough rite...:)
im gonna reward myself after this....cant believe tht this sem is comin to an end...
3 down 5 to go...oh man teraser lamer...and new years is comin..this year no resolution for me..!! sbb biler buat asyik tk ikut jer...might as well takder langsung rite, and just go wit the flow..tht is what life is all about... experiencing the unexpected..hmm shud be cool i guess...no plans, no expectations and wht not..just go wit the flow..take it one day at a time..that has been my motto since i came back from msia... which actually works well with me..so im planning to keep it tht way.... until..umm dunno when see la how....

Borak with mama and papa semlm...my dad is sooo funny la.... if u have met him ull definitely know wht im talkin about...he is one monotonous perasan cool dad! hahahaha..well he is cool la...!
his expression and response to ape2la...from happy news to sad news or what not..is always the same...like thattt jer...cam one note like that...hhahaha...
we were yahooing together this morning and he was like...
udin has not been feelin well lately, has he and his gf broke up?
and i was like..aperla papa ni...taupun nk gossip...nk gossip cari an..hahah...
usually my mom will be the one asking and koreking evrything...its so funny when he yg tanyer...
and he kept asking the 6 W's? when? why? bla2X! funny la papa nie...

talked to nadya for nearly 2 hours tadi...babesss that was a good session seriously...hahah teringt i zaman dulu kala when we wud gayut hampir evry other nite and talk abt everything...hahahha...
i misss my girlfriends terribly la...at least now their always online...nnt biler dh start class mulela tak npk rupe...hehehhe....

YES YES YES!!! his comin ppl...i cant believe it..in less than one month oh my gooooddd!!!!
tak sabarnyerrr..... yay yay... suke suke suke~~~~

syrrunnaja u are sooo loved by me u know tht..:D

ok peeps, i need to hit the books....and start absorbing ilmu i hope..how i wish u cud just makan the book and there u go, all the formula's, theories, important notes are all in u....
~sigh...

babai pak lebai tupai

my lil pink room....

2005-11-27T12:13:00.000-08:00

Yesterday i talked to ainul for the first time thru msn! finally she has entered dunie IT!
i dah setahun lebey kat sini barula nk download msn ye! but anyhow, it was a good chat!!! miss u la laling!
now im just waiting for sufina to join the club! MSN really does help to melepaskan rindu and berupdate eachother!!! technology nowadays, or shall i say the dunie semakin kecil, or globalisation..ok whatever i am soo crapping mrapping!

Ainul told me that my old house dah kene roboh! Finally!!! and she said tht she cud see the serpihan of my pink room!
when i heard this, i was like, ok i sedih!
too many things happened in that lil room, a lot of secrets shared in tht room, a lot of tears, a lot of laughter...and a whole lot of fun jgk!

numerous sleepovers with ma girlfriends...
my gedd, i remember when nadya first time slept over my hs!! babes it was way back kan, but it was good, it was our first cm breakthrough as friends for a lifetime kinda thing! that was the moment kan babes kan...

or the last night we all sleptover at my hs!! including sufina! tido kat bwh wit the lembek and pillows, and click2 session! and gossiping under the selimut session, and the nxt day sumue malas nk kluar and ordered pizza, and we berchitchat lagi..i sukeee~~ well the room has left a lot of memories!!
too many!!!

ala the room itself was not only shared wit my girlfriends...i remember when nurul and nadjoe and nabilah sleptover sebab nak siapkan programming yg bodo tu! hahahha
or our countless power point presentations! ~sigh....sedih already
but that was then, my coming up age...my teenage years all happen in tht room!

and i know the new room will collect the memories and stories of my adulthood! hahaha...
maybe this time it'll be the room (hmm still for sleepovers hahah kan girls), prolly getting ready for sum wedding or porlly my wedding! hahhaha..ok thats a loong shot! but its part of the package kan!!! hahah every girls dreams...can u blame me!

hmm merapu ikan kerapu already!
hehehe....

The break is coming to an end!

2005-11-26T09:18:00.000-08:00

ok thanksgiving break is coming to an end.... it was a good break....doin basically nothing which is good!!!
talked to the family yesterday as usual, my weekly menelephone family!!!
now, papa and mama are coming plak! hahah..i lyke la kan!
3 weeks and counting!!
aaa seronok!!!

enggak saber gue!...hahaha
dah 2 days in a row, i missed syrrun! i mean missed him by a few mins...he was online, and when i act realized dier dh offline!! suckss
hope he goes online again kejap lagi!

finals is also around the corner! lagi 2 weeks!!!
aaaa i cant wait for that jgk, i mean i cant wait to get it over with la!!!
so ok, nak gi mandi
toodlesss

D E C I D E D.....

2005-11-23T00:32:00.000-08:00

okay ppl, thanksgiving break is finally here!...and my midterms are finally over!
what a nice way to spend the short hols...im gonna relax and not think about school for the next few days....very memenatkan y'know...but hey, the semester's comin to an end...seriously how i feel this sem passed by soo cepat!!!
tak raser aper pun actually!!!

i cant wait for winter break! oh my god i have so many things planned out
hahah not la byk..but can la!

#1. Mama, auntie Ana and Yana are coming!!! ala best nyerr!! cant wait....

#2. Yes ppl, i finally decided to go to UK and see suraya! titibe ticket murah la plakkan ...soo i thought Of it as a sign!!! ive purchased the tix, and am just waiting for the day! saye cant wait la!
i ajak nadine to cum also... it'd be soo much fun!!!

#3. SYRRUN....my main interest at the mo! saye tak boley tunggu dah la sayang! cepaaat januaryy!!!

so there u go ppl, my winter break plans...and by the time i know it im back in msia!!!! i lyke!
soo many things to look forward to! but as for now, finals are my main concerns!!

till then tata!!!

being i n d e c i s i v e

2005-11-14T22:17:00.000-08:00

ok i am sooo in holiday mood! i have 3 exams this week, and it seems like i have none!
aiyooo, i never learn i guess!! hahaha
bersms with mama tadi, she told me that she wants to cum here!! yay! in december...hahaha kalau dis year dtg, mmg 2 years in a row la kan....
prolly after finals, sebab udin's term starts on the 19th i think...and right now
the perasaan of goin to uk is 80%!!! hahahaha..since the ticket agak murah!
sooo i dunnno.....i dunnoo..nk pegi ker tak nie!!!
but still contemplating!!!!!
patut ke pegi!!!
patut kut...tapi sian mama kene cut short her trip!
how?
aaa tekanan...thats why im so indecisive...making desicion is sooo membebankan!

anyhow pumsa organized the annual raye celebration...it was meriah.. sgt amt..!!!
mmg makan pun tk senang...sbb ayik nk bergmbr je!!! hahahha...tk larattt!! but i suke!
food was good...spt biaser la..to all the cooks excellent job guys( that include us la kn) hahahha

so its already the middle of november, nxt week is already thanksgiving break!
im soo looking forward to the break, and jus do nothing! hahah....
and after the break, its full swing usaha for finals....

now dari takder plan at all for winter break, dah jadi byk plan...and its killing my brain just to even decide....how perfect wud it be, mama coming, jumpe bestfriendku tercinta...and syrrun coming after tht...wow thats alot to take in a month huh! buttt im not complaining!
hmm but i dunno....ill have to decide soon!
hahahha
till then ...toodles!

raye aftermath

2005-11-08T22:06:00.000-08:00

well, the weekend was awesome! but then reality sank in eventually....
exams, homeworks, classes, bla2x...
how i feel now time has passed so fast..its already the second week of november....
midterms pun dh nk kat habis dah!
finals are on the way!its all good anyway...

well i watched ungu violet last nite..the movie i cursed and sweared for being so slow, and byk ckp! hahha...sgtt jiwang la tak larat citer tu...the guy tu kejap i rs hensem kejap tak..
but i punyela sedih throughout the movie...tp ending dieer mmg la...mencengkam jiwa dan raga!
hahaha....but it was not bad! sekali cukup la...
not healthy u know watching sappy love stories!
hahaha

well, i learned sumthing about life today... nothing to do wit me personally but the ppl around me...who have entered in life throughout 20 years of my life... Kuasa tuhan is soooo great!!
soo great its scarry yet overwhelming at the same time...
how we thought we got our life planned out perfectly, and BOOM! God can jus tarik everything away..
all we can do is pray for the best, and be ready to endure all the ujian's that god will throw at us!

i have a question...no! more like a statement...why perempuan kan, are sooo insecure about their relationship, whn they know so well tht the bf sayag them...hhahah..
oh well girls, paranoid is in the hormones i guess!!
i got paranoid and insecure today!! for sum reasons..which i choose not to elaborate here...but spt biaser la kan, di mane lagi i nk pour everything out if its not syrrun....
lets jus say he never fails to make one ayat wit a thousand meanings behind it...
~sigh.... how la ppuan tk cair!! hehehe...but all good sayang!
those were the sweetest words anyone has ever said to me....... cair mair melawan takar lebur dah nie!

anyhow im out...830 class tomorrow...
toodles!!

Selamat B-lated hari raye everyone!

2005-11-05T22:15:00.000-08:00

hellloooo
first things first....selamat hari raye and maaf zahir batin everyone...yea i know im like 3 days late but hey at least its sumthin rite?
anyhow....raye was okay....first day of raye was sad..i mean i woke up late soo tk pegi sembahyang raye...
but the open house we did was a success buttt tk cukup makanan!
sooo sorry to those yg tk dpt makan! we promise tht next year makanan ure cukup!both me and azreen berpompang2 kat daput...sehari semlm we masak...ill update sum pics later on..
it sooo memenatkan! but hey it was u succcess as in at least org makan my masakan!
hahahhaa...
and they thought it was good...hahahha...oh well maybe its just because its free food soo tu la org kater sedap!
hahaha
but all and all it was good....sooo ramai org dtg!

id like to take this oppurtunity to minta maaf to all of my friends out there...
soo sorry for all my wrongdoings, hope we can start fresh kan...
my lovely babes- i will always have the picture of 5 of us in the same color baju kurung in my heart... it was a good one kan..and i miss all of u dearly!
nads-the msn session was good darling!!! i rindu u amat sgtt!! ill c u in the states nxt year ya!
hehehe
alya- darling...sy syg bgt same kamu! hahah...rinduness melanda la babes...thnx for all our heart to heart talks, our countless private jokes, and numerous laughter...i heart u soo much
supeng- my tmpt meluahkan perasaan...heard the family is headin to new york in december....we jumps2 k...kalau jadi!
i sukee than can take cool cool pics haa i sukeeenyerr!
ainul-babes darling where are u la!!! saye merindui kekecohan mu! we'll update each other soon ya

arep,omar,muizz,ammar- sian i tunggu kad raye tk dpt!!! hahahbut hey u guys take care of the girls ye!! i amanahkan kt krg!!! and have a gr8 raye without me again...
i rindu all your kekecohan jgk!!!

purdue seniors tersyg- all of u yg dh selamat kt msia...i tunnggu laa kan ingt2 dptla merase duit raye from u guyss...tp all i got was card raye tonjang yg eksyen makan makanan sedap..hey kiterog pn makan sedap la kt sini..haha but it was sweet of u tonj!! to the rest,kt nazha, own....
aiyooo purdue soo quiet without all of u.... kts!! i rinduu our click2 session!! aiyooo...
till we meet again nxt year k

my uitm friends my atu10 peeps- all of u are close to my heart jgk...selamat hari raye and maaf zahir batin k

suraya- babesss we're so funny! but i love u tau! nnt kiter jumps k

last but not least
syrrun sayang- ~sigh a lot has been said dh pun kan...u know ill love u throughout this hardship we;re goin thru kan...ill be here 110% for u.... loving u more every step i take, and every waking day.... insyaallah, if god permits we'll c wach other soon k....till then, u hold on to the faith tht we have towards eachother k...i sayang u byk! sampai bile2...

Post October break

2005-10-16T18:04:00.000-07:00

its been awhile since i post sumthin... a lot has happened, i mean not a lot, but byk la than the usual....october break was good...when to michigan city. i went there with no intentions to shop at all...hahaha..butt. girls bein girls la kan, maner boley tak shopping! i bought 2 pair of shoes, im usually soo fussy in buyin shoes, but the shoes that i got was jus to die for..i suke i suke! now i want to figure out when will i use it..hahaha...
then we were off to uiuc..aaaa, the feeling of meetin nurul and sherry, was soo best...we arrived at around midnite, and when we sampai fu was also there...for sum badminton tournament or sumthin. so triple the joy la kan! their apartment was soo nice and homey....we chatted the nite away, even fu joined us for our gossip session...kurkurkur....reminscing the old times was good....tak larat, complaining bout our xm's, hw's, etc etc...biaserla kan...
then the next morning we were off to st louise....the arc was nice...but the 'engineers to be' appreciated it more than i do la kan...hahaha...
i just though it was cool, and whoever the engineer and the architect was, was one helluva fella!!hahah

so there goes my 'awesome' october break. and now everything is back to normal..hahah back to hw's,xm's and all tht jazz
only 2 weeks left for raye...cant wait!! even though the excitement is not mcm dulu2, but hey its not tht bad
this sem pun is coming to an end dah...cepatkan..!! i wish it wud go by faster! haha
i really hope i can go to uk for this winter break. but hey kalau tak pegi pun takper, cuz yess syrrun's comin in january!!! so no uk also nevermind!
but it wud be nice to see suraya! and wud be nicer of dpt jumpe my family...
anyhow, im off to class now
toodles

FRIEND....STER

2005-10-07T10:02:00.000-07:00

~sigh midterms1 seems to tak forever to habis.... i have my stat papers in an hours time..hish tak taula ready ker tak...bantai sudah, cuz my otak is already in cuti mode
today is really cold...and i soo tak ske..but i can wear my new jacket..sukee!

talkin bout friendster...~ how sumtimes i thank god that sumbody had the brains to create friendster...i mean ive met my friends since i was like what 8 years old thru friendster...and the shock i got when i see everyone now is all grown up and cantik, and sum are good looking...and how i am excited when i see most of them are studying abroad and stuff....gile la! tak sangka..all of us dulu mser kecik2 takder hala tuju, and now sum are on they way to become doctors, engineers, bla2x..giler bangga!

and sumtimes, u find out things that u know, mcm things that ure not meant to know...been a member since i dunno forever la kut....ader org use friendster as a tool of communication, which is a good thing, and ader org use friendster nak kenekan org lain, thats jus bad ppl...
its just a thought on this friendster thing, since everyone seems to be a member...but overall, its still cool! sooo ~salute to the creators of friendster
im gonna continue studying now~ till then toodles

Selamat berpuase everyone

2005-10-03T21:11:00.000-07:00

so ramadhan is finally here! yes it is official that we are goin to start fasting tomorrow. Tuesday 4th october 2005. oh well to those first timers berpuasiing abroad and rayeiing abroad...dun feel bad...it aint that bad! jus fill it wit friends and loadsa kuih raye and raye food...u shud do fine!
minus the duit raye la kan...

again i am here writng my aktiviti seharian....after a loong day,it is soo freakin bosan! but exams keep me busy i guess....which reminds me i shud be studying instead of surfing the net! i dunno whats wrong with me.

i have a thought about this long distance relationship....it is hard, but it is not as hard as all of u imagine..or prolly im just tryin to make myself feel better hahaha....no doubt i envy to those of u who are lucky enuff that your boyfriend is with u... esp to those whose abroad la kan...that means more time wit the bf....which is nice...but as for me, i dun have that privilige...but not to worry....
im not against this kind of relationship anymore...i mean yea things can happen if u dun have faith and trust.... but as long as theres hope that one day ull be meeting eachother and one day everything will end, and things will get back to normal u shud be alrite...
all it takes is a lot of patience and courage, and strength...hahah sounds soo cornyy!! but true
For now, i am holding on to this hope that both me and syrrun are grasping until the day when everything will be over....but till that time cums...ill wait~ (with patience..hahaha although it is unbearable at times....*wink wink* like noww!!!!) sayang how i wish u kat sini instead...
ok im out ...i need to studyyy!!!!
byeeeee...and again selamar berpuase everyoneee~~~
p/s: suraya u no need to diet2...sufina jgkk....u girls look beautiful the way u are!!! i love u girlss no matter what

Hello October!

2005-10-02T15:34:00.000-07:00

ok so another weekend has passed by....another boring weekend i might add. neverthless, a good weekend indeed...
i have another 2 exams next week, aaaa last batch for the first exams...and then fall break, im lookin forward to the break just to rest, and not to think about school....forawhilee...
september has gone and passed... helloo october!
i hope this month will also pass by fast... puase is on the way....shud be interesting...
anyhow, there is not much to say i guess...

P/s: naja sayang, have a great first day of class k...study hard...
i love u, baby!

its more than ive ever asked for

2005-09-30T13:39:00.000-07:00

what a good day today is..i thought it was gonna be a bad day for me...cause belum pape2 lagi ive missed two classes this morning....i dunno why i cant bring myself outta bed...haha....
but syrrun msged me last nite...soo i was glad to hear from him..that was more than enuff for me.. but then he called me this afternoon while i was on the way to class...i wass sooo shock to hear from him..cam tak kenal skejap..:)

but i cud hear everything from his voice, which i choose not to elaborate here... whatever it is i am glad everything is okay, and he is safe,just wait for a couple of weeks then he'll settle down...
the weather over there is just like the weather here...soo im too worried about that....but anyhow, he knows how to take care of himself...

and....to make the day lagi complete, i got back my test results...alhamdulillah, i did ok...
soo agak satisfied with it... two more exams to go next week...then fall break!! aaaa best nyer cuti...i suke suke...~ i cant wait for january~~ syrruns comin sgt excited...

mama msged me this morning sayin that all of em are on their way back, cant wait to talk to them, its been awhile..
this evening we're organizing a bbq...haha..amalan bersosial, jus to get everyone together....
while im waiting for the potatoes and eggs to boil....ni la kerje...menulis aktiviti seharian...
im so tired la~~ anyhow...im out toodles!

Tak bisa memiliki part 2

2005-09-29T14:14:00.000-07:00

another day without news from him....yesterday he msged me asking me to call him..which i did, we talked for at least 2 mins and the line got cut off, and i cant get thru him ever since.
~sigh ..i hope things are alrite...we were so happy and sad at the same time when we talked...
but 2 mins was enuff to know that he misses me...and how much he wants to talk...but sumhow, we cant....

but anyhow, ill just have to wait...till when he settles down, and i get to talk to him whenever i want...its alritey

i had the longest conversation wit sufina just now..hahaha..it was fun and nice talkin to her, we talked about everyhting....from the smallest thing to the biggest things.....its so nice to talk to your girlfriends once in a while.

mgmt exam yesterday was okay, i screwed up question 3.. i cudnt even understand the question. ..bantai sudah, i just hope i get above average.
anyhow...
here goes another day...hope tomorrow's a better one

Tak Bisa Memiliki

2005-09-27T08:35:00.000-07:00

ive been hearin that song over and over again, i really dunno why.... the lyrics is soo sad...which is not exactly what im feelin rite now...i guess dygta's are just very addictive...:P
anyhow, syrrun msged me yesterday, sayin that he just arrived and all...it was the best short message everr!!! it totally turned by day around...from masam to manis terus!! hahaha
it made studying so much more bearable, it made the exam not that difficult, and most importantly it made me smile...:)

i hope his doin alrite....anyhow, i wonder how org zaman dulu survived long distance relationship, i mean they didnt have the net, dun even get me started on the telephone, it must have been soo expensive, and sooo tak clear...and there were no cell phones, that means no text messeging! all they could do is rely on letters, and be waiting for months to hear from their other half...and yet they still survived...i'm soo lucky, i mean we're soo lucky....to have all this priviliges...so i dun think we shud take it for granted....i guess dun feel bad if u cant see them...appreciate the distancee, think of it as a good thing...
it definitely taught me a lot...hahah....we fight less, we love more...i mean thats all we want rite?
hahahaha..i guess im jus tryin to make myslef feel better....haha..i need the comforting...hahha..its gonnaa be a loong day ppl...
till thenn...toodless

surayaa!! if ure reading this...i sayang u tau! hahaha....this is sooo funny!but i doo i really doo...hugs and kisses

weird day

2005-09-25T21:49:00.000-07:00

the weather is soo freakin gloomy, just like my mood...very gloomy
ive been in tears the whole day....
i have my reasons that i wish not to talk about here....
but today is monday in malaysia, and syrrun's leavin ....
i am sooo sad!! so sad~
it feels like as if he's the one whose gonna leave me
padahalnye im the one who left him
and how i wish to witness the moment...at the airport..it seems that all my closest peeps seems to send me off first, i never had the chance to wish sumbody off...
haha weird but true
but anyhow...i shud be studyin, ive been doin nothing the whole day.the weather itself didnt allow me to go out....
it rained, and it was just mendung the whole...sooo sesuai to sleep..
and ill prolly do that now
soo good nite ppl...im out

naja sayang, i hope u have a safe trip. and jus bring me wherever u go k..
i love u

He's leaving

2005-09-24T14:24:00.000-07:00

yup judgment day i call it
this will be the day he'll leave malaysia and be on his way to achieve his dream
i am proud of himmm sooo proud of him.....and cant wait for all this to be over..though itll beee a looong time..this is just the beginning of a very loong long journey for us...
i am scaared for the uncertain future that is held ahead of us...

but if this is what it takes to be together, than what the hell...ill go thru it... its jus sad that i am not there with him...u know helping him doin all the prep and stuff...sibuk2 nak kemas brg and all...and be there holding him sampai airport...like what he did for me..it'll help alot...but then i am here, helpless...waiting for him to be home everynite just to say goodnite to him....
helpleesss is what i feel... for now he'll be busy and his mind will be occupied with things and later on with studies exams and all.... but when he needs sumone thru the good and bad.... ill be there.....

i shud be doing the same thing too..keep myself occupied..... get my ass off this computer and start studying....
how i wish things were that simple...but no pain no gain rite!!!!
soooo....i guesss ill jus have to deal wit life as it comes...and for now....a good gpa is all i want...

p/s: i misss sumueorgg here...purdue is sooo quiet without all of u....

Sunday Morning

2005-09-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

so it is sunday morning, or maybe sunday afternoon, i woke up so late, had a late note...doin nothing~~~ haa mmg org giler...i shud be studying as i have exam next week...i dunno whats wrong with me...but anyhow...everybody close to me have gone and left ....
i really dont know why i feel really affected by this...hahaha..weird but true

oh yea, i took my liscence yesterday..i always have this thought that i mmg ader bad luck with this liscence thingy..but thank god i passed...so its one step ahead for a car... ill jus wait when mama and papa get back from umrah. it'll be great to have my own car, can go anywhere anytime without menyusahkan sape2...:)

not much has happened....i talked to nadya semlm...we had a good lil chat..haha berupdating
i miss alya..i dreamt about her last nite...hahha...yea....
anyhow, i tak taula nak tulis aper lagi
need to have a bath and start hitting the books
toodless...~

FRiday Morning...

2005-09-16T06:58:00.000-07:00

ok final exam schedule dah kluar...ok byeeeee la kannnn!!! i mmg selalu bernasib malang!!! 3 sem berturut, i am the most terhegeh2 habis exam...and this semester i will be finishing on SATURDAY 520 PM...the last paper of the finals...and to make it lagi best last paper is, ladies and gentlemen put your hands together and give it up for LINEAR ALGEBRA!!! hahahha
life just cant get better than this.... ok im just being dramatic...biarkannnnn!!! hahaha

seriously, i never thought from all ppl syrrun would read this lil space of mine..hahahah..funny~but glad that he actually read it, its mostly about him anyways..
anyhow, yes ppl it is already friday...suraya left for the Uk yesterday...syrrun will be leaving next next monday....oh ma gedd...i think at one time there will be no one left in shah alam...
everybody's goin abroad... haha..i myself am away...alaaaa cepatt la habisss~~ tak larattt!!!!

exams are around the corner..oh ma ged..i dunno how id do la kan...it all seems soo susah...
anyhow, tomorrow i am goin to amik my driving liscence wether i like it or not, im gonna finish it once and for all..... malasss nyer melanda!

everything also malas, dunno what yg rajin..i cant wait for puase..hahaha really! and october break..of course la kan... who doesnt like cuti.. dis raya wud be simple i guess... dun wanna think abt raya... the excitement is jus not like celebrating it with the keluarge... the excitement of getting new clothes, or pegi open house org, o prolly the excitement of gaining the weight that uve lost during puase....
trhe urge of visitting suraya suddenly dis december very kuat...but well, i guess it can wait....
now i feel time is goin by soo cepat... and i am not complaining la kan.... cant wait to habis belajr...
i dunno what the hell im babbling abt in this post...but who cares anyway....

sayang i tak sabr nak jumpe u dis january!!! cepat sket ..i nk mati dah~~~~ hehehe..

5 years down and a lifetime to go

2005-09-12T21:09:00.000-07:00

yes, it is our anniversary.it is soo sad that we're far apart from each other.but syrrun said one thing today and made me realize and smile... he said "sayang dont be sorry that ure not here, enjoy the distance" i was like what the hell's that supposed to mean...then he said sumthing about, when we're far apart we tend to not take each other for granted...and it was proven when i came baack last may..he said it was the best time ever...i agreed..even though i still wanted to be with him soo bad....

but anyhow sayang, i love u no matter what....
thank you for everything...:)

talked to suraya just now, it was funny that my mom asked her about me and syrrun.i mean she always does that...but i dunno...anyhow...she asked wether both of us were serious about each other...isnt that funny? suraya being the besttest bestest besftriend told my mom not to worry about us, they are serious and they;re trying to make it work...haha.. things she wont talk to me about...hmmm...i can talk about mostly anything with her but when it cums to my relationship with syrrun, somewhat there;s a wall between us...but mother's being mother's...or maybe my mom being my mom...teehee,,,but what the hell its all good
we just have to hope and pray for the best i guess and try to make it work....just hoope faith is on our side but for now i feel that it is...

happy anniversary sayang...i love forever and always....i really do...
hugs and kisses from me...mmmuahhhhx...hugggggssss...
love u....

2nd post of the day...who cares la kan

2005-09-06T20:18:00.000-07:00

ok so what its my second post f the day...aurghhh how i wish my brain is more efficient, seriously this assignement is killing me... kusut kepale otak i...ma geedd...before i continue my work, i wud just like to let out my kestressan!!!

it is not hard, its very simple...but why why!! why is it soo difficult...aiyoo....maybe i kene restkan my otak forawhile...~sigh....
shida ajak masuk salsa class...shud be fun...hehe...at least can get started wit my excercise...heheh...
laguna beach nie seriously addictive nak mamps...heheh....like soo lamer nk tunggu the next episode...drama drama drama...

i feel weird, i dunno y...it is soo hard to illustrate what i feel...i feel lonely ker...i dun think so..maybe sumtimes...i miss syrrun soo much, aaaa... his leavin soon, oh ma ged..his not gonna be in msia.., even though im not in malaysia, but sumwhat i feel that he is leaving me...haha..pelik but true...
his gonna start studying soon...that means no time to talk on the phone...but its good for me as well...soo that i can get my ass off the phone and start hitting the books....
i hope and i pray that everything turns out well....and i hope that all this waiting shall be worth it...

6th Sept 2005

2005-09-06T14:55:00.000-07:00

its already september, how fast this year pass by... specifically today, id like to make a bday shout out to ms zaznuriah zahir, happy birthday dear.... and finally welcome to the gang of 20teen..hehhe...
and next my dearest friend Mohd Ariff Abu Seman...hey hey you, happy birthday sweetheart...:) tup tap tup tap, its already been a year...kan kan...i miss u...
hope we'll be seein eachother nxt year ...u study hard dude...

classes has begun...for 3 weeks now..unfortunately, my brain is still in holiday mood...haha..i dunno when it'll be back to normal..hehhe..hopfully soon cuz exams are comin...
i miss home...i miss syrrun...but everytime i talk to him, no matter how sad and unbearable this thing seems, he always makes me feel a lot better... ~sigh.... i really hoope to see u baby...
december aint that long kan....

my family will be leavin for umrah in 3 weeks time, how i wish i cud follow.. im imagining jj in his white jubah and kupiah, and muke masam, and letih sebab kene buat umrah..hahhaa..sooooo comeeelllll...!!!! and udin will be potpeting to him for being such a brat...hahha..i can actually picture everything already...i cant wait for this semester to end....hahha...its only been3 weeks, 13 weeks to go..thats not too bad huh!!...

anyhow, my friends are all super duper busy wit assignments exams and stuf...at least alya's always online...i misss herr.... but at least we still keep each other updated..ive been msning alot wit suraya too...goddd she's such a darling angel la hahah(not really la kan)....i cant believe she's leaving malaysia soon...im soo proud of u babe...we've been talking alot through msn....cant believe that both of us are abroad, fulllfilling our dream, we used to be soo mengarutt dulu2 maser f1...hahaha...i love uu babeee...no matter what u are my bestest bestest bestfriend...heheh...

i shud start excercising...hahha...probably ill just go a run...till then ppl..toodlesss...

i miss you

2005-08-18T07:13:00.000-07:00

i miss evrything abt u
i miss u hugging me cm teddy bear
i miss the sound of your voice putting me to sleep everynite
i miss your presence
i miss your smell....
i miss driving around aimlessly with u
i miss eating everywhere and everytime wit u
i miss how u say i look nice even tho i look like crap
i miss eervything about u
i miss how we laugh our heart out
i miss crappin wit u,
i miss having a someone to cry to..
i miss u baby...too much it hurts
but i know we'll be seein each other soon kan...
till then, ill be strong and hold on to this hope that we have...

saye dah pulang

2005-08-18T07:05:00.000-07:00

aaaaaaaa...raser nk jerittt...tk ske dis feeling....i hate feeling like diss....feel like a lost puppy
ala, its only been like what 3 days jer pun kan..can u blame me...
~berat bebanku, meninggalkanmu....
aiyoooo soo cornyy

but the thing is we've been thru this pun kan, what makes it any difference pun right..we're still gonna meet up nxt year...sooo shud be ok...for now im not..but i guess as time passes by, things will get better...tak sedar, that its already been a year...

my jetlag is sooo baddddd.....at least i slept last nite, even tho bgn pg2 bute nie...ill get used to it kut...anywhow...ill update later...since dh balik sini, irs i will update lg often.hehehe

25th july 2005

2005-07-24T20:56:00.000-07:00

its been awhile since my last post, alot has happened lately....
i dunno how to sum up my feelings for these past few weeks....
happy+sad+conteted+sad+sad= tk tau aper
im goin back in 3 weeks time....oh man how i wish i didnt have to go back
part of me cant wait for school to start..im ready to start hitting the books ..hahah

i dunno how im gonna leave syrrun....alamak....benci...
he's been acting i dunno what lately, skejap soooo sweet and the other minute cam nak marah.
i guess he's jus angry cuz im leavin..its alrite we;ll find a way to jumpe...
no matter how hard it is

ok nk try

2005-06-30T22:36:00.000-07:00

yay berjaye....
kambing betul...ingtkan susah sgtt...
ok more pictures will be posted soon...this is jus a tryout..hahhah

somethings are better be left unsaid

2005-06-30T01:53:00.000-07:00

heyy, yerp mmg rs lamer tk berupdate...

anyway not much has happened after langkawi. just byk duduk rumah and kluar cmni cam tu jer
went to watch war of the worlds yesterday, world premier la kononnyer. ok the movie was pelik..mengarut and pelik... not my kinda movie for sure.
oh last sunday papa wanted to play futsal. i dunno why he titibe termimpi nk main. And so he asked me to call up all my friends to main.
nxt morning, the ones that showed up were only syrrun and omar. and the rest were all tantan friends. but it was sooo comel. me and sufina kat tepi tu cam tk habis2 duk ckp abt how comel everyone looked. who would have thought, my bf would play futsal wit my dad and my brothers. felt like part of the family huh? haha ok that might scare him..heheh...
but it felt nice and good that mama and papa cm acknowledge syrrun... :)
and jj was sooo comel, lari kesane kesini, screaming syrrun's name everytime he dpt bola..:) cuteness..

later that day, sufina's dad hantar durian...haha..it s a miracle..hahahha but it was i think a friendly neighbourly gesture...and plus the durian was good..i loikee..~
oh and i didnt follow my cousins to bali~ didnt felt like going....
anyhow nadine's comin back tomorrow.man i havent seen her in ages..it'll be good to see her..for sure kurus...aiyoo..ntah2 i lagi gemuk from her...oh no~

probably monday nie nk gi genting wit alya and muizz..hopefully jadi..cam best jer...
anyhow...will keep u posted...
toodless....

Post Langkawi TRip

2005-06-21T18:36:00.000-07:00

hahha...all i can say is i had so much fun..though it wud be better if syrrun was around. but it was still all good.. the much anticipated trip was such a blast...
and i had all my babes wit me..for the first time...(sufina didnt joined us for the penang trip)
als, nads, nuls, and sufs..all were wit me...hehhe plus eleanor of course..:)
and not forgetting my guys la kan...

the bas ride to kuala perlis was soo much fun, excited la katekan..we were soo bising sampai the bus driver and sum makcik tegured us for being soo noisy..hehe..
we laughed and chatted away throughout the 8 hour journey to kuala perlis, well we did get a lil bit of sleep....
then when we finally arrived at kuala perlis it was 4 am, and we had another 3 hours to wait for the ferry..met up wit arep..kesian die..he had to wait for us for 10 freakin hours....
by the time we arrived at kuala perlis, evryone was exhausted fr the bus ride bus still energetic, esp udin la kan..aiyooo dis lil bro of mine kan energy mmg tk habis2x..i guess we all know why la kan..ahha

to write down evry lil detail about the trip is somewhat impossible, cause there were soo many things that we did and not even one event was not shared wit laughter and smiles...

one of the most memorable event that i'll remember of this trip is when we went canoieng at tasik dayang bunting.. even writing abt it will make me laugh...
we went canoieng, muizz alya, ainul udin, adam nadya, and myself and arep...
muizz alya and udin ainul went first...we saw them canoed away through the beatiful lake..
then it was my turn and nadya and adam..hahahha..
after 'bercanoieng' for a few minutes...we decided to 'beramazing race' la kan...
hahah....mmg bersemngat habis...but one thing led to another..yes!! my canoe toppled...and myself and arep tergolek masuk tasik...hahhaha....nadya and adam dah gelak cam babi hutan! hahahhaha..but it was all good....

the other thing that i'll def remember abt this trip is of course the banana boat ride.hahha
my gedd the wave was soo high it nearly toppled us off the banana boat! it ws sooo funny, everyone i think mmg beristighfar and berbace doa la kejap atas boat tu..hahah...
it was ssoo much fun la...enuff said...

anyway this post abt this langkawi trip will be continued...im gonna go out for breakfast...
till then ppl, toodless...
out~

10 things i shud do abt myself!

2005-06-08T11:17:00.000-07:00

i think i complaint too much.... i whine too much.... and i hate myself because of that. y cant i just be like any othergirl...or any other person for that matter..try to appreciate everything u have instead of things u dun have...thats the thing...i used to give this piece of advice to my friends...and haaa..its better said than done...

its a new start a new beginning for Raja Noor Zehan Raja Mohd Azmi

1. MAke time for family...whatever happens family always somes first..
2. Do not get too emotional on things. jgn layan sgtt that feeling.
3. look at the positive side of things instead of the negative side of things.
4. SPent time as if its your last.do not take time for granted as it is the most priceless posession anyone cud eever have
5. to forgive and forget. as forgiving will make everything soo much better.
6. Make the best out of myself.
7. love myself for who i am.
8. get to know myself.
9. love the ppl who loves me and nvr take them for granted as they cn cum and leave at nytime
10. make a change! for the better that is...

originally written by
zehan azmi

a lil thought here and there

2005-06-01T04:08:00.000-07:00

since dah tk update sgt, and since im nt doing anything, might as well right sumthin...
oh well, things are goin great these last couple of days...

i heard midwest games was the bomb! too bad i wasnt there....well, msia cannot wait la...hehe
anyway, hope i can meet evryone when they get back.. esp ms nadiah johari...
ya ampun soo the very lame tk jumpe u ok! the closest person to me in intec, and the most lame tak jumpe, sekat states tak jumpe langsung....takpe2 will be seeing her soon..:)

yesterday i pegi minum wit azreen, man it was so funny hanging out wit her here..told both of us sebusy mane pun, one day will sit down and chitchat sampai tk ingt dunie..it was sooo good talking to her and meluahkan perasaan...rindu siot..hahha..klakr

and today i met hafiz latiff..haha..mmg borak nonstop...went all the way to his place and had nasi lemak...who would have thought we wud be hanging out together in msia..surreal but true...it was good seein u bai! heheh

syrrun and me have been seein each other everyday since i got back..hehehe...
hari ni he hang out kat rumah, and entertained by brothers...ala bawak gi makan ice cream and all...comellll tk thnnn!!! hahah...
:)
udin will be soo freakin mad at me cuz i havent called pelangi to ask abt the rates of the room...kalau dijangka will be going to langkawi in 2 weeks....
ok first thing tomorrow...aiyooo lupee daaa~~

tillthen toodles

my 20th birthday

2005-05-29T11:09:00.000-07:00

oh wow, it was a blast, thats all i can say....
everyone came to the bbq....i had wonderful giftss from evryone...
i had an extraordinary birthday gift from syrrun...:)
he brought me out to dinner...and all...it was jus P-E-R-F-E-C-T
sigh....best nyerrr
raser nk duduk jer kt msia nie, tk nk balik sane dah...

not much to be said, im jus gonna spent the next 3 months as if its gonna be my last...
soo toodless...

P/s: special shout out to my beloved friendsss..
thank you sooo much for all the love and support...i truly appreciate evrything

Finalss!!

2005-05-02T23:02:00.000-07:00

FINALSS finally came!

cant wait for it to be over. mannn how i longg for this moment for the past 10 months...im goin back home soon, soo soon dah...looking forward for all the makanan yg sedap2...syrrun promised to belanje me makan the day i sampaiii, malam tu jgk kluar...:)

i cant wait to see my entiree familyyy...mann hw i missed all of them... opah, atuk, nenek, atuk, angah, andmy cousins..ya allah rindu yg teramat sgt...:)
but for the time being finals are not over yet! soo kene laaa concentrate kan...
my math paper baru berlalu, :)..it was nt that bad, okayla...alhamdulillah...
next arab and physics! mann...physics dah lah tak habis bljr lagi, and tak tau aper pun....
tomorrow will be physics day for me...bosan teramat sgtt

anyway babbling too much already....
nk tido...its late dah pun
till then toodlesss

Funny feeling part 2!

2005-04-27T23:13:00.000-07:00

i got an sms from nadya today, she told me about arep's brother punyer tahlil. and after reading her blog, i myself broke into tears, right in front of the computer.
my god, how i wish i could be home right now, and be there for arep. i would have definitely be there every night at his house, jus to show my love and support.
i called nadya and broke down into tears again, how i miss these ppl. things has changed so drastically since i left. i can even imagine how's it like now.
i really hope things will turn out for the best for us. betul nadya ckp, when she said that the funeral brought all of us together, and yes we take each other for granted.
so many things has happened, breakup's hookup's...and so on...
but for all i know, no matter how things has changed, they are still my best friends. friends that has stood by me through thick and thin, even though we've jus known eachother for a short period of time.

Funny feeling!

2005-04-26T22:10:00.000-07:00

hmm....these past week, a lot has happened back home. i cant even imagine how things will be when i get back. there's a feeling of excitement mixed with scared.

Excited because, i finally am going back home, since ive been away for like what, hampir setahun. the feeling is just too overwhelming. The first time will always be a big thing la kan. i think after this, it wont be that much of a deal, until when i graduate.

Scared! well, scared of the changes. It may be better maybe not. for starters, im not going back to the comfort of my pink room, which suck big time :(. Scared about how things have changed between kawan2 kite..:)
new ppl have entered in our lives and ader yg meniggalkan us, how things are not the same anymore, how things are not as it was when i left. but insyaallah its all for the best kan..

and finally, the moment that ive been waiting for, meeting syrrun...
that'd be sumthin that im really looking forward. i wonder how things will be like when i finally see him, i mean we've been apart for soo long already. well all i know its gonna be worth the wait..:)