just thought i wud right something

its been too long la kan...alot has happened..of course it has been several months...
Malaysia was great as usual...been spending a whole lot of time wit the family this time around..
which is great actually...to think of it..there are my friends and family at the same time..i mean if i want to have girl talk, there's always zaza or nadine...and if i want to hang wit the dudes..theres always izmir, udin and boy...ariff...if i feel like gossiping, opah,mama, cu and the gang of wednesday lunch dah cukup utk cover the hot stories..heheh

and there is jj and tantan who always makes me smile sometimes in comel ways and sometimes annoying...who cn resist them? i spoil them too much ke huh? hahah...i see them once a year kott...soo the hell la kan...but i dont see udin tht much as his away from home and only are home during weekends...naj is all grownup and a bit reserved but sumtimes can be rakan berborak and teman buat errands...

Clearly i miss being home terribly la kan.. 2 years down and 2 years to go..insyaallah..all of thi swont be near to complete if syrrun takde kan..his also family...though we may disagree on few things and may have our arguments but hey thts the beautyy of it kan...with him i can get everything in one person..well maybe not rakan shopping..hahah..but still can la! hahaha..
besides that all in! heheh..love u baby!

whatever it is though there are kekurangan, or things may not be smooth sailing...i definitely wont trade any of this with anything in the world...family is wht matters most.(baby ingt ure family too okay)..took me several years to actually embrace tht and really realize it...
sayyanggg sumuee!!

ok im being emotional or whtever it is...toodlesss

ke- update- an

oh sgt amat lamer tak berupdate...tak tau why uddenly ive the urge to post something..
oh well eventhough its been centuries since i last updated, unfortunately nothing much has happened in my so called boring life...

ive 2 weeks to finals..oh my god...and ive panick attactks sometimess... but still could not bring my lazy ass to study...and im goin back a few days after finals...
im so excited to balik but at the same time soo takut! i hate changes! but hey thats what life is all about kan... i hate to face the truth....who doesnt kan..thats why we love to just live in a world of 'indeniality'...(ok i dun know if there is such word but who cares)... Not good butat least it makes u feel good at least for a short time ...

and i have to move out from my apartment...gosh the thought of packing and cleaning and moving out dah buat i penat...we have to leave the apartment spotless kottttt!!!!!! which iss impossible..hahhahah
and ive loadsa things( i think) to bawak balik but dun think theres enogh space in my luggage..
and mama boley lagi suruh beli barang lagi! aiyooo!

A miracle happen to me yesterday! i talked to my bf for 6 hrs! oh my god that is a miracle! suke nyer i....we havent talked that long for ages okay..the last time i think was when he was still in malaysia...and now dah selamat nk dekat setahun dah he's there !!
because he just discovered that he had free minutes ker aper ntah...kedoinks la u baby! hehhehe
dah berjuta tahun aderphone baru terdiscover.. heheh..nevertheless i am soo thankful ...
sangatt amatt...felt soo good to talk to him...

hmm id love to put some pic in thiss but seems like i dun have any recent pics la... been busy musy jer...busy doin nothing la kan!
hahahah....


*17 days to go~ kurkurkur


and also i have 2 weeks to at least menguruskan badan sket..(i refuse to acknwledge when ppl say tht i dah kurus..hahaha) the last time i went back org kater i gemuk..and trust me that is not the best feeling in the world la kan!
but hey im also looking forward to eat eat eat and eat and gain weight hahha sebab tu la kene lose weight kan?

sambungan updates

okay, its been awhile since the last time i post something....i dun know why i cant bring myself to writing something..anyhow...wassup ye?
well not much kott...its spring break...ive been doin nothing except lazing around the house...i du know wether its good or bad..well sure feels good though, but dun know la the effect nnt kan...
mest gems teramat..heheh
went uiuc to visit nurul and sherry...its been awhile babess...it was good seeing them as usual...berupdatesss, and bertalking till dawn, hahaaha..the whole workss la ...
suke laa...we'll sure come down again and mengacau hidup u...hahaha...
both of them sampai terponteng2 class because we were there...hahaha...soo basically tu jer
oh yeah we went shopping, didnt beli much pun..just bought for adik2 tersyg...

i miss syrrun...i cant wait to go back...although when i balik, i still have to wait for another sebulan lebih...well we've got used to the distance i guess...mcm2 halangan and rintangan but insyaallah we'll make it through kan sayang kan...
rindu u la baby...

talked to mama...adulahai my mother is so kechoh i tell u..hahaha...so funny la she..she has all this plans lined up for us when i get back ...its like i nk balik like next week ker aper...heheh
but at least i know even though im goin back the econd time aderla significant maksud to my family...hahahha..
i know ppl will be like, heh balik lagi..but hey once a year kene la balik right?
ok not much to say i guess
till then toodlesss

updates*updates*updates

oh tersgt lamer tk update here..alot has happened...when was the last time i posted sumthin? oh my god during finals...that is sooo lame! its already the spring semester, and halfway thru it lagi...
anyhow ill just summarize whats been happening...
1st
right after finals, my parents came...they got me my car! suke sgt...thnx mama and papa!
sgt berbakti even though baru jer gune...:) brought them to chicago and sum of the outlets...mmg all we did was shopping and menghabiskan duit...hahah kesian papa had to follow both of us shopping!!! but alls good, it was a good one week with them...i even brought them to hafiz punyer commencement...hahaha funny cuz they actually pegi ngk somebody else's nyer graduation first instead mine....but tk kisahlahkan
2nd
then i was off to UK right after my parents balik msia...Meeting suraya and syibli(i tk ske panggil u chib..hehe pakai name betul) was da bomb!!! babi nyer ppuan nie bawak i gi shopping...habis duit i....hehehe...but it was soo good seein her..and celebrating her bday as well...very simple trip but at the same time habis my duit...hahahha
also when to watched bola!! hahah manc united vs bolton..best giler kut...papa got us tickets...masuk suite and all..teraser macam we were winners of sum contest pr sumthin...but best sgt...one hell of an experience..sekali tgk jadila kan.. *my bro's all were soo pissed sbb i yg dpt tgk, i yg tk pernah kisah at all psl bola...oops,sorry adik2 ku syg..*
3rd...
spring semester came..alhamdulillah i did well for the fall semester, hopefully dis semester will do better( but i agak doubt it..hahha)
syrrrunnn came!!! sukenyerrr....
he was here for a whole month... alot happened... whatver it is...i love u more than ever...
we went to new york and niagara falls, who ever thought id get to do this wit him!!! if u ask me like 5 years ago, ill be lik u crazyyy ker?!!! but alls well..i had alot of fun...i suke...just to be wit him at all time...i love having him around... * dtg lagi ye sayang ye*
even hanging around the hs wit him/or cooking/or watching movies/tv/talk/or eat together...
i loved everything abt it...i want him here!!! sob sobb
4th
syrrun went back on the 15h of feb!!! gosh that was a hard one la seriously... sooo berattt u knowww....never been this berat..and when i drove back home from the airport teraser soo kosng and sunyi..cuz usually he'll be the one who'll be driving, or making stupid jokes along the way while i sleep ker aper...aaaaa ....
then when i actually reached home..he dah takder..gosh lagila sunyii....tgk sofa ksg, or the tv tak show his usual programmes he'll watch...all those from discovery channel, or history channel..mmg channel pelik2...:D..
sayang u are soo missed around here...i nak u kat sini!!!

oh well every beginning has an end rite...i cant wait for the next beginning which will be in june...
at least i have something to look forward to...
rindunesss melampaui batassss nieee....
anyhow that basically wraps whats been goin on...
soo now ill have to hit the books...and study...
till then toodless...

* sayang, no matter what i am here...i love u soo much!! thank u sooo much for coming here, and thank u soo much for all the love that u've showered me...and most of all thank you for being here when everybody else walks out ...u are my bestfriend, my soulmate....i love u sgt amat...will be seeing u soon kay baby...*

finals week

oh my god..i think im gonna be sick...finals are driving me up the wall~~~ tula saper suruh study last minute...padanla kan muke tu!!
but hey i know myself better than anyone else...i feel that i work better under pressure...seriously so this last minute thingy kinda works for me...hahaha... but its definitely not healthy la!! well we'll see...as this semester is coming to an end... and this semester also is sort of like an experiment in order for me to find the best way/right way/easy way to study and get my grades up...we'll see...at least until next week!! :D oh gosh purdue is definitely so cruel....
but the system's good and efficient thats for sure... ..

anyhow....its 1238 am and im actually tired...i didnt do much today...i mean studied the whole freakin day... its been a few days since i makan sumthin right..and today when i actually ate right, my stomache is giving me a hard time!!! aiyoo...mmg tk healthy at all la musim exam nie...
sleep late, not eating rite( bukan tak makan, makan mmg tetap makan!! kurkurkur)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i sakit perut and sakit otak!!! reallly....my body is tired but my brain is still 'bergeraking' hahah...
anyhow.. its gonna be like that for the next three days!!
now it feels like time is passing by so slow when i need it to go by faster....
ok i am so crappin...
babai pak lebai tupai

*1 down 4 to go*

oh my god....

its comin trueee finally...

ok well before tht ive got to mengharungi finals, which is less than 3 days...mati i...
but heyy, i canttt wait for winter breakkk oh my goodd sgt amat !!!!!!!!!!!
i am sooo excited tahap dewa...

econs paper will be on wednesday, i tk bljr at all lagi..ma gedd....but planning to start kejap lagi..cant believe i actually ader plan of study and im actually following it..hahah...well ader la terlari maser sket..but hey thats discpline enough rite...:)
im gonna reward myself after this....cant believe tht this sem is comin to an end...
3 down 5 to go...oh man teraser lamer...and new years is comin..this year no resolution for me..!! sbb biler buat asyik tk ikut jer...might as well takder langsung rite, and just go wit the flow..tht is what life is all about... experiencing the unexpected..hmm shud be cool i guess...no plans, no expectations and wht not..just go wit the flow..take it one day at a time..that has been my motto since i came back from msia... which actually works well with me..so im planning to keep it tht way.... until..umm dunno when see la how....

Borak with mama and papa semlm...my dad is sooo funny la.... if u have met him ull definitely know wht im talkin about...he is one monotonous perasan cool dad! hahahaha..well he is cool la...!
his expression and response to ape2la...from happy news to sad news or what not..is always the same...like thattt jer...cam one note like that...hhahaha...
we were yahooing together this morning and he was like...
udin has not been feelin well lately, has he and his gf broke up?
and i was like..aperla papa ni...taupun nk gossip...nk gossip cari an..hahah...
usually my mom will be the one asking and koreking evrything...its so funny when he yg tanyer...
and he kept asking the 6 W's? when? why? bla2X! funny la papa nie...

talked to nadya for nearly 2 hours tadi...babesss that was a good session seriously...hahah teringt i zaman dulu kala when we wud gayut hampir evry other nite and talk abt everything...hahahha...
i misss my girlfriends terribly la...at least now their always online...nnt biler dh start class mulela tak npk rupe...hehehhe....


YES YES YES!!! his comin ppl...i cant believe it..in less than one month oh my gooooddd!!!!
tak sabarnyerrr..... yay yay... suke suke suke~~~~


syrrunnaja u are sooo loved by me u know tht..:D

ok peeps, i need to hit the books....and start absorbing ilmu i hope..how i wish u cud just makan the book and there u go, all the formula's, theories, important notes are all in u....
~sigh...

babai pak lebai tupai

my lil pink room....

Yesterday i talked to ainul for the first time thru msn! finally she has entered dunie IT!
i dah setahun lebey kat sini barula nk download msn ye! but anyhow, it was a good chat!!! miss u la laling!
now im just waiting for sufina to join the club! MSN really does help to melepaskan rindu and berupdate eachother!!! technology nowadays, or shall i say the dunie semakin kecil, or globalisation..ok whatever i am soo crapping mrapping!

Ainul told me that my old house dah kene roboh! Finally!!! and she said tht she cud see the serpihan of my pink room!
when i heard this, i was like, ok i sedih!
too many things happened in that lil room, a lot of secrets shared in tht room, a lot of tears, a lot of laughter...and a whole lot of fun jgk!

numerous sleepovers with ma girlfriends...
my gedd, i remember when nadya first time slept over my hs!! babes it was way back kan, but it was good, it was our first cm breakthrough as friends for a lifetime kinda thing! that was the moment kan babes kan...

or the last night we all sleptover at my hs!! including sufina! tido kat bwh wit the lembek and pillows, and click2 session! and gossiping under the selimut session, and the nxt day sumue malas nk kluar and ordered pizza, and we berchitchat lagi..i sukeee~~ well the room has left a lot of memories!!
too many!!!

ala the room itself was not only shared wit my girlfriends...i remember when nurul and nadjoe and nabilah sleptover sebab nak siapkan programming yg bodo tu! hahahha
or our countless power point presentations! ~sigh....sedih already
but that was then, my coming up age...my teenage years all happen in tht room!

and i know the new room will collect the memories and stories of my adulthood! hahaha...
maybe this time it'll be the room (hmm still for sleepovers hahah kan girls), prolly getting ready for sum wedding or porlly my wedding! hahhaha..ok thats a loong shot! but its part of the package kan!!! hahah every girls dreams...can u blame me!

hmm merapu ikan kerapu already!
hehehe....